Saqqara
1992

Going Blind

do…do…do…do
do…do…do…do
here comes the rain again
the blue day gone
the black-eyed morning, Andy
but when you hold me near
the sky should clear
and blood should taste like candy

we're always throwing punches
into a dark unconscious
wide awake
for heavens sake
I'm looking at life inside
the sun may hide
my eyes might be offended
some subjects are forbidden
they're in a best kept hidden history
where I can't see
going blind…going blind
gong blind…going blind
do…do…do…do
do…do…do…do

I'm taking the long way home
the road unknown beyond the crash of laughter
among the dead of men
who rise again
but don't know what they're after
and if I lose my senses
in past and present tenses
I won't mind
what I can't find
gong blind…gong blind
gong blind…going blind
going blind…going blind
going blind!
do…do…do…do…
do…do…do…do
do…do…going blind
Going Blind

 

Goodmorning World

goodmorning, goodmorning,
goodmorning world
goodmorning, goodmorning,
goodmorning world
death grace this moonless night
my life has gone home early
God bless this windy street
whose heavens don't deserve me.

up on this timber top
my tender heart is breaking
who knows when our breath goes
what sacrifice we're making?
I suck in the grass
and the wormy sod
pass over the plow
in the goldenrod
wake up in the grave
in the grace of our God

goodmorning world
I catch the 14 bus to work
and then to-morrow
pass on a tender kiss
to Evan and to Carol.
I stand in the wet
and the weary queue
I'm taking a seat
with a window view
and turning a page
of the daily news
goodmorning world
I won't pretend I don't hold on to
some great shadow
I've just been thinking 'bout how
nice it is to let go…
let go
goodmorning, goodmorning,
goodmorning world
goodmorning, goodmorning,
goodmorning world
death grace this moonless night
where every drunk is drinking
let's hope our faith does not
reduce our minds to thinking,
we'll wake every day
with the sun devout
throw open our arms
and let heaven out
the wind in the trees
and the flowers shout
goodmorning world

goodmorning, goodmorning,
goodmorning world
goodmorning, goodmorning,
goodmorning world

 

Little Murders

just one kiss holds in place
a spiders web on an angel's face
just in time,
just in case you leave me
and forget to say goodnight

sure this love makes no sense
like old dead leaves on the
farmhouse fence
our sordid past,
in the present tense
the funny way you still make me cry.

(chorus)
do you love me
like all your little murders
do you hold me
with treachery in mind
if I chase some dream and cannot catch it
well then, all your little murders will be kind.
sunday's sad, sleepy sky
punched and pussed like a fighter's eye
the long tall weeds
where the clothes hang dry
the gentle way you come in off the breeze.

(repeat chorus)

(inst. bridge)

just one kiss holds in place
the broken latch on amazing grace
the tender kiss
on the fragile face
the photograph of you when you
were young.

(repeat chorus with tag)

 

St. Helena's Garden

heaven
heaven above me, yes?
In quivering death undress
the heartbeat inside my chest
in a Timex test of faith.

wonder
cut from a swinging rope
limp in the jaws of hope
under the microscope
when the angel broke with grace.

but of all the famous photographs
of hell exhibited;
none were more convincing
than the ones inside my head

(chorus)
come out here simply
with a kind word or a pardon
I find no solace here
in St. Helena's garden.

come out here simply boy
where all the fruit is rotten
they're planting madness here'
in St. Helena's garden.

moonlight
does my arithmetic
cuts to the mainline quick
struck where the needles stick
when an arsenic won't do.

but heaven,
now there's a hiding place
nobody knows your face
love and devotion race
in a state of grace with you.
but of all the famous photographs
of God beside his word,
none were more ridiculous
than those that we both heard

(repeat chorus)

 

Always a Mystery

Jack put a match to the hem of his heart
and a curse to his own holy cloth
down on his hands and his knees in the dark
he was fanned by the wings of a moth.

Sue let in light through a veil in the room
and a virgin appeared on the wall
only a dream may fall down from the sky
to remind you it's nothing at all.
always a mystery to me
always a mystery

those were the days on the edge of the world
when we carried our clothes in a sack
but how very deep in the wind did we sail
to be sure we would never come back?
always a mystery to me
always a mystery

who put their hand flat on the back of our shirt?
Who when we stand
up in the boat yeah?
up in the boat yeah?
always a mystery to me
always a mystery

how shall we liken this lifetime of ours
to the wonderful light we embrace?
what little distance there is between stars
and the miserable look on our face
always a mystery to me
always a mystery

(solo)

always a mystery to me
always a mystery to me
always a mystery

 

Jesus on Dolores Street

Jesus on Dolores street
the sun came out this morning
in this house on the garbage heap
there are no curtains blowing.
all this waste of a doctors couch
to know what we are thinking
Jesus on Dolores street
and both our feet are sinking

describing this place is
like holding your breath
when you die.
the tops of the churches
are poking the flesh
of the sky

Jesus on Dolores street
the junkie king will falter
just some nails and a barbed wire wreath
to decorate his alter.
how lonely this place is
how long empty faces resume.
we stagger our glances
from out of a crack in the tomb.
a ghost or a vision
at this intermission
would choose divine love and graces
in all the right places
and lose

Jesus on Dolores street
a drunken lad rejoices
broken glass in his beauty sleep
and a wilderness of voices
sing out for this haunted boy
sing out for this wounded heart
sing out for this empty death
as if all our prayers
had been answered yes
as if all our prayers
had been answered yes
as if all our prayers
had been answered yes

Jesus on Dolores street

 

In the Arms of Angels

open,
the door is open
and it’s evening
the night is already reeling
the moon is high on the stair
and the old man
pours a glass at the table
after reading a fable
after wiping a tear
and he says,
"drink with me, drink with me
here’s to our history
here’s to a miserable life"

(chorus)

we are in the arms of angels
with our coats in the frozen air
we are in the arms of angels
but we hardly know we’re there
know we’re there
we hardly know we’re there
sorrow,
meets a train at the station
like a bad blood relation
meets a bride down the aisle’
and the wind blows
over yesterdays paper
down the hall in a vapor
down the ridge of a smile
and I say,
"wait for me, wait for me
my little runaway
gone on the blink of an eye"

(repeat chorus)

(background vocals)

open
daylights comin’ to an end
Gods gone drinkin’ with you friend
oh oh
old man
swallows half a broken moon
takes a blanket from your room
and brings you shivers when you sleep

sorrow
with a pillow underhead
takes a loaded gun to bed
and in the morning leaves you here
wind blows
sort of low, and sort of high
with its arms around the sky
as if that over-soul could reach

 

Grave Robber

falling asleep at the wheel
well in the wake of the morning star
over the mountains of steel
over the bridge and the subway car.

I was a hole in your overcoat
bird in the cage of your eyes
wiping the scent of your enemies
off the prophetic sunrise.

falling asleep at the wheel
beating the breast of another day
all these emotions I feel
all these catastrophes in the way.

gaze on the rugged geography
hand on the cradle of Christ
I wasn’t dead when you said to me
"baby you only live twice…"

(chorus)

I’m a grave robber baby
when the light goes out
I’m a faith healer honey
on a shadow of doubt
in a tall bed of money
with my mercy mouth

I will love you, I’ll love you
I’ll love you, I’ll love you right…

over the whispers I come
charred with a kiss that is counterfeit
mother abandoning son
to sleep in the bloom of an opiate.

deep in the earth hemming sediment
the dream unbeknownst to the dream
rises benign and benevolent
like something afraid to be seen…

(chorus)

I’m a grave robber baby
when the light goes out
I’m a faith healer honey
on a shadow of doubt
in a tall bed of money
with my mercy mouth
I will love you, I’ll love you
I’ll love you, I’ll love you right…

I’m a grave robber baby
but I’m moving up
I’m a soul hunter honey
and I’ll wake yours up
with a snake on the handle
of my loving cup
I will know you in death
as a mystery greater than life

I was a hole in your overcoat
leading a drunken reprise
hoping to shake the invisible
hand that would cover my eyes…

(repeat full chorus)

 

Patience

this hollow is the moving ground
this shaking is a chilly figure of trees
combing a shadow hair.
this greeting is a waving of weeds
this warning is a widows bag of seeds
scattered a wedding wide.

in a real need
there is no company
for patience.

this city is a little town
one shovel in a stupid patch of ground
stuck in a babies mouth

in this life you’ll see
the great dexterity
of patience.

do…do…do…

in this life you’ll see
the subtle cruelty
of patience.

this hollow is the moving ground
split open with a perfect halo of stars
killing the kissing moon.
come closer baby give me a smile
God knows you'll only hate me for awhile.
then you'll come back to me

in this life you'll see
there is no agony
like patience.

do…do…do…

 

Every Little Bit Hurts

it’s a masterpiece of work
and it’s our mistake
it’s a house of brittle bones
now about to break

it’s an accident of love
underneath the moon
it’s a sticky little kiss
on a gunshot wound.

when the stars are in the field
and their dead eyes fix
when they cut away the grapes
from their crucifix

when they sacrifice the god
of this harvest town
will you kiss me in the spot
where they tore him down?

(chorus)

every little bit hurts
every little bit hurts now baby
oh every little bit hurts
every little bit hurts now baby
oh every little bit hurts
every little bit hurts now baby
oh…

it’s a miracle on earth
but it’s ours I guess
who could recreate a past
so disastrous?

who could rise up in the church
in a veil of blood?
who could trade the vows of guilt
for the vows of love?

(repeat chorus)

 

Leaving Val. I.

so long ago
I was born today
Sonny signed the paper
took the car and drove away
on the hothouse porch
the sun would scorch
a finger to a pistol

I was alive,
but I was asleep
don't confuse the dreams you give away
with those you keep
this a lousy lesson taught me
while I shut the shutters softly.

(chorus)

I don't want to live forever baby
please be understanding with me baby oh
I would like to go to heaven, maybe
darling wave good-bye
we're leaving Val I.

such was a lie
told in our defense
now we're digging ditches
to exhume our innocence
still the life we think we're saving
cuts itself while it is shaving

(repeat chorus)

watching the clock
on the top of the bureau
till I'm shaking the hand
on the one and the zero
when the orderly
says, "promise me lights out"

so long ago
thank you very much
we become acquainted with a world
we couldn't touch
some would blame our apparitions
half on faith and tele-visions

(repeat chorus)

 

Snake Charming

...and will you walk me halfway home tonight
beneath the underpass and oversight
the sleepy street of closed out little shops
are not in their indifference orthodox
with affect and intensity
I feel you breathing suddenly
close to me

the moon is adding lipstick to her looks
and when you're not seducing her with books
in death defying gravity
the ax of ancient history
falls on me

(chorus)
beautiful as lilys out of Egypt free
you're snake charming me
delicate as dawn upon a killing spree
you're snake charming me

...and will you sign your name to mine my dear
if all your vows are sacred and sincere
the heart is in itself a perfect prize
and don't we always love what we despise
in awkward ambiguity
I feel you breathing suddenly
close to me

(repeat chorus)